rebelling mind

as I am moving forward ( starting of 3rd week ) in my 2 months bootcamp to restructure myself. leaving behind afflictive habits. my mind sometime helps, sometime appreciate, sometime insist, sometime resist and sometime time even get angry on me. yesterday it almost lure me to the other side.

I am also experiencing 2 realities frequently. one is good old afflictive downward slide, and other one is more realistic, primal and wise. a good sign of change is the frequency is increasing.

one of the place where mind has some serious advantage is, when I am agitated and have nothing to do. it’s pretty clear that I will fall into either mental gratification trap or even worse some affection will make a tempting argument. such a cheap act man. ( kick someone while he is down )

heatmap is quite red on when I get back to home or weekend time. I am sure i am not going to get much of the time in weekdays evening as it would be better to spend that time on cafe and shops ( atleast for this week for sure ). on the weekend I am sure I will find something more important to do. or if not clear lets just take a walk afterall I am in dubai. and this is a tourist
place. but for 2 months please make sure you don’t fall back on those afflictive habits.