Relationship : Lin’s angle

Yesterday, Lin brought up her challenges in the relationship. It was triggered by Vipassana long retreat. In essence, she was asking how long you will do it, before you reach the point.

Because of my vipassana, her life is on hold. She was afraid that it may take me forever to come to that point. And then she was also afraid I will reach the point and then I will stop being interested in the world.

She mentioned that I am neither here nor there. brainwashed, missing out on things etc.

Then we talk about her age and being unable to carry a child after certain age.

My mind didn’t feel moved inside and listen to her problems.

From my perspective, I am feeling centered. In a way, Ok with whatever is happening around me and feeling content and satisfied internally.

I personally didn’t had personal desires. So I didn’t suffer.

This perfection I want to continue. This is what I will commit myself to.