Vipassana.

My practice is drifting for the last few days. There is a lack of seriousness, the posture is lumpy. And the mind is running wild. Metta is almost gone.

The morning videos are not being created as well.

How can keep practicing optimally?

One part is you need to be inspired. This happens when you create a daily video. Going through that material creates inspiration.

Then the practice has to be proper, There has to be observation of sensation, there has to be samatha, and there has to be anicha.

When the quality is declined. There are going to be the times when the mind is of a certain kind. And the quality of meditation is poor. You still do it. Because that state will change sooner or later.

There is another way that you can actually turbocharge it by giving it a boost of 3 days self retreat.

There is absolutely nothing in the world that will make you happy but you will still keep getting diluded and keep chasing the air, in the hope of happiness.

While there is something beautiful and librating within that can be attained with consistent practice and truly only that can release you.