actor prepare - day #1
this is one of the most interesting opportunity, and I better take full advantage of this. before anything set your frame and purpose.
this was interesting. so when I talked to the receptionist. she was sort of mechanic and closed. than I was the first guy in the room. walking the room. few people enter the room. I shaked hand talked. people were much more nervous than me. nobody is talking to anyone else. I started to talk one guy. so what you do I said, he probably set it first, the guy runs a restaurant. and was somewhat not very much into talking, he was probably closing the sentence much faster. but his rowdy frame wasn’t clicking with me at all. I exit not so smooth. and moved in sit between to guys. so are you from mumbai ( a location / ocassion ) opener. are you nervous is the question coming from that guy. nervous not really the great conversationalist. I talked with this guy a bit more and than turned next. I want to participate but give me something to chew. these people are hard to talk, and I have no strategy to flow the conversation. peoples are sweating from the hands. I talked but didn’t build rapport with anyone else.
while I am talking came this guy who introduced the acting teacher and dancing crew. the other dancing guy had poor body language. and even actor is pacifying, the ceo gave the agenda and speech. a good speech, know who you are and stuff, engaging with philosophy but not really know it deeply ( i guess so. ). nobody was asking any question so I asked one would there be a group performance which include every one ? voice is steady I believe. than he explain and said why are you afraid, and I got nervous
and than begin the dancing class. I was in front. and there are 2 instructors, the guy was a bit nervous but the girl was very strong. so lets see how everyone will perform. see ask 3 people in front. I really didn’t came front but people moved away. so I did the dance as the first 3. not really a proud moment. a bit of embarrassment. but way less than I would expect me doing dance, understand how self conscious I became after the dance. everybody else must have been as well. we did couple of number so to be said. not really getting the rhythm. but trying. i didn’t know what everyone else was doing. I was interested and first. couple of people asked questions not very amusing. I muttered par aa jaana, didn’t get noticed.
than a bit of the rest. note the nervousness of the room is quite useful for your purpose. than came the acting class. with lacture a bit shallow around what is acting, after all the bullshit coming from the people, guy declared it is to do. than he did the exercise close your eyes and breath with the standard posture. and than sit and think who are you. I was thinking but really not I was more into the hurry of performing on stage. ( see the guy probably don’t have a lot of insight. ) but sort of has the template on which he wants to go with. now I am on the stage. and he start to neg me. why are you standing like that. I wasn’t that nervous ( better than I thought ). so I talked about how I searched the same thing. ( your voice is too slow, like own it dude ), see what he did what was wrong. ( audience - his hand are moving but not eyes. ) well move your eyes. ( the guy clearly has more authority in the room ). and what is your first language. hindi, so speak in it. but I am comfortable in english. so now I am repeating the same speech. the authenticty is lost I am not sure now. i don’t have map. I don’t what I want to communicate and what are nodes of it. I looking at people but not really making eye contact. so I repeated. but you didn’t tell us where in himalayas, what are your hobbies, and where you from ( this is the most imp thing. ) ya but I don’t think so. well repeat it last time. I took a sip of water and redo that. ( I probably repeated the speech 5-6 times ). the last one came more from unconscious.
than there was this group thingy. where you have to produce a still image with drama. the group I was in quite amazing. so lets do this cricket thing. no lets do this gay thing. nobody really listening to each other. I think the gay thing is good. we are so doomed. why this is right. why that is right who is the leader here. so we performed this gay dramatic still set.
and in the closing set actor didn’t forget to mention why this is not the great place for self realization. and the class is dismissed. an eventful evening indeed.