appropriate challange

sometimes it feels like life is just too overwhelming, insane amount of it is just filled with afflictions, and it is tearing me apart. I can sense there would be a time when I would be able to stand against my fears, attachments and affliction firmly. but at this moment, it seems insanely challenging to just keep my face up.

all the fear, lust, greed and doubt keep tormenting me quite frequently, and people around me pretend, they are happy. and they defend their concept of happiness. some finds their work as a source of happiness, some thinks it is the attention they are getting from people, others believes they are doing it for their family. it feels like they have made some sort of deal with ignorance. and anyone who is going against it would be potentially an unpleasant object.

when i came to dubai, just like when I started programming, I felt well the tough, the challenge is the point of it all, this is what makes growth possible. the struggle is the progress. and I still recognize the truth. but what if the challenge is overwhelming. what if the wind is too harsh while it won’t make any difference for a well grown tree. it can certainly damage a baby plant.

a strong sense of kindness and compassion is essential toward oneself to progress.