EFP #5

over this weekend I choses be alone and not doing particularly anything. and It was not so good feeling. morning I wrote something, after noon I slept and thought a little. evening walked and contemplate maybe. none of them inspire to achieve anything or relax. everytime I enter in the zone where I have to do nothing ( mentally ). I feel strong unease. something very much avoidable, who would like to feel miserable.

this beg a fundamental question, do I need to keep running. is it the state of suffering buddha is referring ? isn’t that suppose to be peaceful. how much stuff we do so we don’t have to feel this. the default of reality.