Being alone vs. living in a relationship.

The challenge is for me is on the level of mind the conflicting ideas and the voice that comes up with that, now that can not be the excuse as that would be paralysing and if I don’t take decision it won’t be resolved by itself. Ideally I should take this decision when the mind is unified or I know enough of it.

Living alone in a cave is not the life I want or will be taking for the enlightenment. Although relationship can be counter productive to reach the state self mastery.

The another thing is wasting time and energy to stay in this delima.

My general intuation at this point is go all in and build a beautiful relationship with her. my fear is that it can become a hinderance in the personal growth and maybe I missout on something better. Or maybe it might not work. The default will leave me in position of being single and in a tight spot which is to be honest not a good spot to be in.