Meditation on Communication.

with mom - A conversation with mom happened, where mom brought the topic of marraige and job supported by emotions of why are we here, before I die, every other household, an expectation of service from other, and when I will live with you. It also pained me to see she injured her leg. The futile attempt to explain it with unformed logic in the midst of emotions is kinda waste.

• although the thought didn’t really linger in my head afterward. It would be nice to have better communication. Expecting mom to stop saying this is another futile expectation. Although in certain matter you can state clearly this is the decision you would make by yourself without any explanation. If you are clear by yourself. Even if you are not, state it clearly at the level of clarity, and do not explain. Say it clearly and then change the subject.

with ramlakhan - why are you not coming to village. At 28. No I am here for one day. Samajik kaam ke liye Bhai time nikalo. Pahle apne kaam to samtne. Apne kaam to chalte rahte hain. Papa hain na iske liye.

mom - 2 I am going to Asaram, leaving all the home, if our children won’t do what we want then what’s the point. Sell all the things, and home and farms. I am the only person who cares. Bhai is worried, his father is worried. Papa is worried.