friends.

I recently went to goa with some of my old friends. who has choosen a different path to live. and it is cheap. the pretends. I tried to bring many times the topics of understanding their actions. or have anykind of meaningful conversation. and all they care about dominating. a constant stream of judgements. while clearifing, not they but you are judging. both of them could not stand each other while projecting a cool persona of don’t give a fuck. making personal comments to each other. and all. revolving the world around them. they probably could not handle the emotional chaos, so they learn to spend most og thier time on trance. the buffer.

and they have absolutely no desire to change or improve. they have figured it out. withdraw from reality and stroke the ego.

one good angle was because they have a lot to prove. they were constantly trying to expose my weakness. challanging. attacking. and some of them even get under my skin. this is the only helpful thing.

the intentions are sprouting from envy.

they seems to have no understanding or respect ( they are not even looking in that direction ) they are brutely disrespectful and seems to have no empthy at this point. all they can do is drag you and other around them down. a third class behavior.

I constantly have to ton down my own behaviour and interest, so I can have any conversation with them. they are trying their best pull me down. just opposite of what friends for..

I don’t have any strong anger angaist them. but I am no more willing to tolerate these kind of third class behavior. I would like to be around people who are living life more in the way I am doing. or have some empthy.

so what you do with these kind of old friends. you just walk away.

live alone if you have to, express yourself. and the right people will come to your life.