Day #80.

In the morning Lin was talking with hatred in her heart, about she just came to say goodbye, I will make decision for you.

In the evening we had a long conversation, emotional, both of us were crying, she told me about me having no other importance for her, just myself, and she could not reach me, nither heart nor physical, why physical is important, she just want to do things because she feels good about me, I told her about my struggle internal, and I said so this is the last time we are talking about and than she cried hard. the mind was trying to speak in between but I didn’t give it much value, later we took a walk in park, and she mentioned where are you and in a way trying to say I can wait if you want. the mind flips now it says i don’t want to before what if I don’t find someone like her.

Because of the morning session of panchakarma I was feeling discomfort in body whole day. and was not really focused in a meaningful way