Without relationship.

If I ask myself, the most important why is to explore the relationship itself. Weather I want to be in one or not is the first question. What complexity and ease it brings. What are the common pattern and what is it about.

What exactly I know about relationship for sure. If I am not in one I was missing one. And I kind of start looking around for the prospect and confused. Although these are thoughts but they are painful.

There is more tease when see someone beautiful or couples etc. there is child attraction or repulsion not thoughtful decision. There is an expectation. There is a desire of realease which accompany some thoughts as well especially in the morning.

There is desire to talk to other people. And espacially taking walk on the Sunday. Tiredness and kind of aloneness in the evening. After the end of the Month I feel strong urge to move on.