denial, fear and what !

how simple life would be. if everything would be black or white. but reality is greyish. and this is the situation where it leaves me confused and freezed.

for example, stepconference. a part of me want to attend this thing because of inspiration point of view. a part of me don’t see value of spending 20k INR for a day for this. another part of me is afraid from social gathering like this.

the best approach to solve these kind of situation (which represent a group of situation ), where I am not sure what is the dominating reason. is to resolve it in mediation.

when conflicts like these arrive, just note the question and keep moving, I would resolve it in the meditation. don’t play with it.