denial or real

mind is a tricky business, it plays deceptive games all the times. it’s really an important question but confusing contemplation wether I have a mind or my mind owns me and the closest answer I can think of is it’s some times minds control me and some time I am incharge ( I am getting more in control ).

but the question that creeps in my mind recently how would I know if I am in denial?

i know a lot of people ( and i could also be one ), who thinks they are doing the right thing but in reality there minds deceiving them. but how could it be possible that a mind who is deceiver can actually tell it self that I am the problem. it might be possible when I am in charge not my mind.

but a better self measurement criteria should be in place which can give the warning about when things are too out of hand.

I think it could be measure better by behaviour and reaction analysis rather than intellectual contemplation. if I am getting angry and proud too quickly than clearly mind has upperhand and chances are I could fall very quickly for deceptive denial. but still how would I know if I am in denial?

the purpose of denial is to avoid pain of emotional suffering. so if I am open to suffering there is actually no need for denial. and suffering itself is a part of progress. in more saviour cases denial might be helpful.

the dark angle to denial is to satisfy the need of ego’s “make me always right” mantra. and this is really harmful and doesn’t really serve any purpose.
humility and compassion are the way to measure how much healthy relationship I have with my ego. and if I am in healthy relationship with my ego there is really no root for denial.