Discomfort.

I was reading the bhagwat gita and based on my understanding I built a model of reality where awareness is god. I started reading culadas and is using awareness and conciousness in a different way than what my understanding is. All the sudden I felt strong discomfort, I don’t want to read it further.

Building the model based on something and when that model breaks down it creates unease. a fear based sensation, it is quiet easy to get into the self judgement cycle from there.

What is appropriate action for it?
Both of them are basically sharing their understanding of the nature of reality. The mear reading is not useful but confusing, if you read less you will endup building a model that will not represent the truth, if you read more it will be confusing but will give you better picture of reality. The ultimate end point is the reality.

The way to resolve this challenge is.

• Fully experience the fear and know it is on the level of mind and ego.
• Know that truth is far more important than protecting a false model and feeling safe
• Do not built intellectual models based on what others are saying but see the reality.
• Route back to the why. It can either give you clarity on why or based on why you can choose the right path.
• Check the authority of the person. and what they are offering. If you are in search of why listen to the right person.