Do the right thing.

There is nothing worse than the ease of comfort of let things be the way they are when on the other hand the pain of uncertainity and discomfort of navigating unknown path.

If I leave her I don’t know if I will ever find someone with close proximity. and with someone I have spent so much time and know fairly well, or I believe so.

On the other hand If I continue and get married to her, I am stuck and I neither feels ready nor I feel comfortable with her many flaws. And then there is this intrusiveness about meditation.

I had enough time to make this decision, I wrote criteria and what I want and what I don’t want and all but the truth is I am not 100% sure about her. There are things the absolute carelessness, easily give up, body health.

In the meanwhile nither I am saying yes nor no. is the state which is the most dangerous one.

She is speaking from the place of frustration and general disspointment because of her constant action without any strong directional thought. Maybe she even has some other person going on. Who knows.

I think from her point of view she is doing the right thing.