domains - spirituality

there is 2 folds of this domain. first is sanity and second is direct knowledge of reality.

the problem I am facing right now is in the practice of meditation, I am not really sure what I am doing. here I need to explore my options. kriya yoga seems like a wonderful option. also raja yoga, patanjali and zen could light the subject.

sanity - when I started to delude, I can not see things as they are, doesn’t mean the mistake is not allowed. but I am able to accept my parts. things maybe a bit out of hand but I am very aware of them. this is the bare minimum. if I have started to react on situations. it’s time to retreat. although there is pysic disturbance becuse of uncertinity ( that’s expected ). but regular disturbance because of ego is a clear sign of retreat.

an hour meditation is bare minimum to maintain this state.

direct knowledge - sanity is not enough. ( as a next step ) I need to be moving forward in the direction of spiritual depths of reality. I don’t really know how to progress here. reading and meditating more is all I got at the moment.

*monthly retreats are essential

current focus - meditating 1 hour/more is required here. than reading more about samkhya, vedanta, patenjali, upnishad, kriya yoga is the most logical step. I believe as I will be reading more here, the next logical step will appear by itself.