EFP #2
speaking of hinderances, today in the morning I felt mild greed and restlessness. and in the evening even more stronger form of the greed. and restraining from greed, is generating doubts.
I can’t seems to hold the mindfulness when things get boring. dullness start to grip so tight I can’t help but divert my attention to something more. like music or commentary.
specifically today I am feeling a bit more lost in the right understanding part also. fear is creeping every now and than, and manifesting in the form of worry, mild low self esteem or people, oh the people.
speaking of right speech, in the conversation I can hardly watch my speech at the moment. it is not harsh, or malicious but sometimes there is exaggeration.
if there isn’t healthy mindfulness, effort or understanding. so how can I not feel a bit lost ?