Get back to center.

I am not being productive, engaging in the lower level actions, and state of mind is not pleasant.

There are these burst that are happening like a energy blob, I am watching movie, reading book, or watching porn… in some way this kind of comes out with the force.

There are these lower level actions like food, sex, and timepassing that are getting their hold on me.

I am also not thinking and deciding but more or less going with the flow.

There is a sense of calmness and ease amongst all of it.

There is also this sense that I am not going to come back to this world again so experience the hell.

There is this is sense of just nonsense of the mind, and with some more upliftment in the level of consciousness and I am out of this mind games.