get used to it.

this is one of the best time of my life. very clear about what I am doing. no confusion about direction. constantly assessing myself. constantly struggling , developing and growing. getting over to my afflictive habits. making peace with my mind.

on the expression level, i am struggling, paying attention, sometime when challenge get higher I get anxious but not worried. than I come back and write about it like this :) . there is no doubt on the expression level this is how I would like to live. doing my best everyday in-front of a challenge that is higher than my skill. looking back with respect and smile that I am becoming the kind of person I respect and admire.

sometime it gets overwhelming because just knowing what is right doesn’t make old habit automatically dissolve they have their pull, and I truly truly respect myself for doing it. struggling voluntarily while it would be so much easier submit to mental gratification.

so this is the sample of how it feels like to live a courageous life. and it’s only going to get better.

thanks for doing it, really you are my hero.