Getting back with Lin.

Yesterday I went to lin house, and have a wired connection which melted into the rebounding and it’s like yesterday. I stayed with her. And It is kind of the same.

The thing about her is, she is nice, normal person. Have similiar interest and ease of connection, open to everything. I don’t have to fool around her. She is kind of stright forward person who seems to be able to take care of herself. There isn’t the pull of other side. Or too much tax. And when we are together it is kind of fun, and exhausting.

In a way, I don’t know anyone better than her in terms of relationship, simple, stright forward, heart ot heart connection. But then she is 2-3 year older than me, have some health issue and Chinese which has implications of it’s own.

I wanna be in a relationship and enjoy my time with her. Balance the relationship and truly be in one. Rather than dipping my feet on the surface. I have this idea that if I had to be in the one, I need to be morally committed. Which makes me pull my hand back in a way.

There are two elements that bothers me, commitment or locking down and Stop on exploration. If these two conditions are not there I will put my heart into this.