introspection time.

I’m again at that place where I need to choose. i’ve been leaning on fence for last 3 weeks. I practically do no productive work when I am on fence. and only rational explanation of this state seems to be recovery.

there is comfort in not choosing. the same comfort when resistance wins. and it is bad like a real monster hidden in plain sight. I got to be better position myself against it. resistance always grow in state on confusion. the more clearer I get less power it has. and the power lies in choice.

so what are my option ?
on gross level there are two. either I can experiment with my life and move further on self discovery phase with full swing. or I can go back and join some compony and on the side I can move forward on self discovery phase.

in any way self discovery is the deciding factor. and what do I mean by this phrase.

1. figure out things that matters to me.
2. remove things that comes into the way.
3. fill the important quality buckets.

and the second most important aspect for me is, creating the space specially financially where I can actually execute it.

so wether join a company, or do freelancing or may be create a product like video course. the whole point of the options is to create this creative space where I can move further.