How did I reach to the point of acting from the mind and feeling less confident.

Until I was doing videos I was doing good, extra ordinarily confident. Then after video I spent some time in Dharamshala, heeru, trying to come up with next step. and hustling, and then seeing my finances are taking hit. coming back to programming and failing and failing to make the right judgement. things getting challenging and being able to come up with a clear decision. I dragged decision for long as well.

At some point I started to react to the situation instead of understanding it and then acting over it. I was making decision that because the number on back account looks good, or atleast it helped me to buy laptop.