Intimacy and mind.

Last week I spent a lot of time playing with Lin, hugs, kisses, sex and fantasy play. How does that affect my mind.

Maybe it was because of lack of sleep, new routine or maybe because of all that intimacy. I felt a lack of strong drive and sharpness of mind. It didn’t felt as much concentrated.

I am certainly not thinking about the sex and moments while I am working I noticed mind thought more about conversation with J than any sex related thought.

I also didn’t think about the fantasies while having sex. Although when I played the fantasies instead of being satisfied mind started to increase the ante.

There are self judgement but they are related to being kind of lazy and not doing what I am saying. Rather than sex.

There is a kind of looseness but I am not sure how much it has to do with sex and relationship.