jump.

that’s it. a fear can not be tamed with thoughts. preparation. and I am very well aware that it feels bad to be struggle. but that’s the paradoxically magical thing. struggle. and this is the real deal.

so despite being not 100% prepare can you take plunge with however ready you are. and very consciously learn to take the first blow. would it be something that you can do knowingly.

I live in the place where I can really open myself, from social point of view. i wanna go out put myself in some venerable situation. and than learn to observe and see. what exactly I have to loose. what exactly I am afraid of. a bad experience. you know very well, you can’t thought your way out of it.