jumping between concepts.

one thing I am noticing from the post of the last couple of months. I have jumped through practicing the guiding principle meditation, four immeasurable, 8 fold path. five hindrances. it’s like I do these things until they are fun. then I loose the incentive to do it. and I moved to do something more interesting.

It is also very much visible that understanding doesn’t really bring much. it fades away quite quickly. it is very much surface level thing. expecting any profound change by better understanding is a hopeless expectation.

knowing or realizing on the other hand seems more penetrating and last longing. all these concept as good as they sound. can not bring a lasting impact. only knowing first hand has any potential.

these concepts are basically solutions. and when there are to many solutions that means the problem itself is not clear. on the other hand these concepts can be seen as something that can improve an already good life. but as far as I can think for me It is more of the solutions to a problem that is not clearly identified.