Know what matters.
State of indecisiveness | Direction and compass -
After working for around 4-5 years. I was feeling very strong unease inside myself. and it’s not that there was something wrong with the work. Infect I was very passionate about the work. And until that point I was kind of excited about where it was taking me. It wasn’t that bad, but I knew it wasn’t taking me in the right direction. I could push myself for an year, maybe few. But I can see things are not getting better either. What was making it really challanging was that I didn’t know what was the problem. I couldn’t put my finger on it. All I know is I am not satisfied. Eventually I realised that I had a wrong map. Initially I was so happy because I thought It will taking me to promisland but eventually I realised.
After working for 4-5 years. I started to feel strong unease. It’s not that there was something wrong with the work. Infect I was very passionate about it. But In my heart I knew it is not working. So I left my job and took a house in a village to see what is it about.
Then I found something even more interesting that I am now even more dissatisfied.
What I learnt with these experinces are a directionless life is not a good life. When we have no direction, we end up with default. And the default is gratifying senses and escaping with TV shows. Intoxicats. Looking for other’s acceptance. Gossips. We are trying to pass the time. Petty issues become unprapotionally important. Because mind is not going to stop.
Having any direction is better than directionless life. Even having a wrong map is better than no map, especially when you believe it is the right map. because there is a sense of relief and excitement in that journey. But eventually you will reach the destination and will have to face, the brutal reality of wrong map.
And there are many maps available that you can choose from and they sound very convencing too. Find the love. Follow your passion. Make a dent in universe. Accept the god. Travel the world. In india there is another one having a government job.
Having learnt my lesson I couldn’t take these maps very seriously. But I was looking for clear map and a compass to navigate in the right direction.
What I undersatood is there are four main areas in our life. And all our thoughts, desires and worries belong to one of these. And it might sound like a common sense but it is not that common to see, that you can not solve your relationship problem with work. But we think we can.
Still we don’t know in which direction to go but in a way we have a map. Now what we need is a compass. Compass is growing one calibrated step at a time. In that way you are not looping but growing one step at a time. This is challanging and is very satisfying.
And I live like that from last one year. And I find it very satisfying that I made meaningful progress in each area.
- Self-Mastery - why it is important | how I am doing it.
- Relationship -
- Work -
- Health -
When we don’t know in which direction to go. When we don’t have map and a compass. We start to worry about petty concerns. Minor issue becomes out of prapostion. We can’t seems to foucs. We feel indecisive. Our mind plays all kind of tricks. And we feel stuck. We rationalises and justify, but in reality we don’t know what to do. And then there is so much noise, follow your passion, find the love, have faith in god. Gratify the sense, make a dent in the universe, And we feel stuck so what we should do? We can’t afford to be stuck. Because there is no stuck we are either moving upward or downward. Either you are escaping or solving the problems.