Learning of the day #19. Tensed up.

Today I went to store to buy the hair product and mind felt biologically tensed up, then bounce and then tasty Khama with Lin. One element was being tensed up and another was caring about others approval. and they are reciprocal and triggering each other followed by a kind of self judgement and being annoyed and irritated by people near me. Yesterday it was on high at carrots and tea trail.

The whole morning was completely relishing on the thoughts on performance and praise from yesterday. And it created this sense of fear of rejection. Inevitable and Interesting cycle.

You can observe and take lightly when “you are doing good socially”. If you took it on heart, a fear of social rejection willl come.

Stay close to truth admit what other person is saying right or wrong, correct when they are praising which is not correct. Play and express the life, and then leave it, don’t think you are doing it, it is the life, engage in the next opportunity.