Learning of the day#33 not inspired and a loose day.

Maybe many things contributed to it, change in diet, lazy morning but I knew what was important today and I did at some level but then in the afternoon I knew I had to go and further work but I spent time with Lin at one point I also knew that I should go. But the immidate gratification, lack of clear lines and stuggling hustle.

Feeling wise I will feel inspired, or less inspired based on days, and then there are other variables am I engaged in trails of the mind. Affected mind by different stimulus. Change in basic food. Ofcourse it will affect you on the level of body. And then mind can be scattered or pointed.

The real question is did you do your best. And the answer is no. This is the place for growth. Stretch your poles.

The second thing is knowingly engage in the pleasures at the cost of voilating routine. Ofcourse the judgement and self lashing will be the result. It wasn’t even about the pleasure but knowingly avoid the work.

Intimacy and pleasure are soemthing you need to think about.