Learning of the day #35. Bikram. Denied by authority.
So I applied for the Vipassana course and in all the truth I said, I had sex, 2-3 glass of wine and 1-2 hour of Vipassana. Now Bikram read it compare with the criteria and rejected the application. I think it was easy no for him. It makes complete sense from his point of view.
When I saw that message I was furious, in my head I was I should not talk to childish, it is better to lie. Then I bad mouth to Lin. I even saw some people smoking and all in the Vipassana, It was complete lie. Even I was watching my thoughts with some detachment, my mind was angry, hurt thinking how would I apply somewhere else. Vilify him. One good thing I was doing what I want for Myself.
Me bad mouthing was completely wrong. Especially to Lin. I should have talk how he is right instead. And seeking sympathy and just plain lie to support my side was even more wrong.
I should know what I want and how he see the situation, and this is how it feels to voliated respect.
The second thing is I am dealing with humans, and they are not perfect. Being too straight is not a good idea. Be aware you are dealing with a child in general. So calibrate accordingly. Leing to impress someone is one thing, white lie so he can feel good is another thing. You can not be complete honest with people who are in the childish state and power. not disclosing the info and upto the point lie is ok.
After watching I replied mail with respect, contrast, what I want and my story. This was a brilliant move. There is no heat and I am feeling good as well.