Learning of the day #4 action from the indecisive state.

In general I don’t have a clear idea what I should be doing. So at one level I assumed I want to stay for next 6 months in rakkar and then I started to look into the places.

Another part of me who cared about others opinion. Promises for 6 months, nobody asked me to commit. But I volunteered, so it will sound good. I could have bargine better deal or didn’t negotiated on security and asked for permission for people to stay at overpriced place. That is fairly unskillful negotiation

As soon as I decided a part of me became extremely noisy about I don’t want to live, with the covert decision on I will see it after vipassana. Another part start to gravitated strongly towards bramha vidya.

If you take a decision with indecisive mind. You are not going to feel firm afterwards. Infect a little bit of challange will scatter you. A long term commitment should be avoided in this kind of case.