Liberation now !

I don’t think about the result that often, or practice mediation with expectation of some kind. or read books for that matter. and no matter what I will continue these practices in future.

but sometimes ( being a bit modest here ) I judge my progress based on how I am performing as compare to past in terms of fear, anxiety, pride and .. , these are untold expectations and parameters. it’s not a bad way of measurement, but it’s not accurate either.

so what if I feel fear, anxiety and discomfort sometime. why I need to remove them, because they feel bad ! trying to control something I am not even in-charge of.

imagine a life where you are 100% aware and concentrated and living in the moment all the time. imagine you have a deep understanding of self, real suffering, real happiness. and standing firm on it like a mountain, how could opinions move a grounded real understanding ( truth ). imagine you have made peace with your attachments and aversion. imagine a compassionate life where you genuinely care about yourself and other.

how much you have learnt about self. by observing. not by reading, not by thinking but only by observing.

this is not an esoteric idea, this is doable, this is doable now. it doesn’t need an esoteric lifestyle. living here and now engaged in the moment or observing. what work you do, with whom you hangout with, doesn’t matter. all of it is a part of practice, part of a game, part of a dance. and it’s not optional.