life without the central distraction.

I used to preech it and now I am in the middle of it. I don’t have anything to pull my attention centrally like a job, school, or a venture. I used to say I want to face default where I am not running behind anything. or hopelessly clinging to anything not even the hedonic excitement, and well you get it.

the problem here is you will feel the default with full intensity. and energies without any proper direction is sort of amplifing the distrubance in me.

but there has to be a goal and ritual or this will lead you to madness.

the goal is simple, cultivate your own mind, body, soul and skill. but this is not a goal. it is more of a path. goal has to be more concrete than this.

what about seeing things as they are. again it is more of byproduct of the maturity of soul.

what makes sense is to run life on monthly basis. where you create a stage that needs to cross this month. than next month you build upon that stage and so on. so you have very diconstructed life in your hand. with a good foundation, now you can choose here, which part is most important and build yourlself like a house. brainstrom, think and rethink. and than just live the month accordingly.

ofcourse don’t expect, your house will shine after a month. but you can have a reasonable expectation everymonth.

I see the urge to build the house asap. but this is not how houses built. take the pride in small steps