The Questions on relationship.

Should I read her mails.
Should I continue on the path of this relationship.
Should me terminates.
Do I want to be in the relationship.
What did I learn about relationship.
How relationship affects spiritual aspect.
Lin or other women.
Sex and sexual misconduct and passionate life.

The relationship aspect comes in me and the mind world, and it is kind of the way of arrangement of life that creates somewhat favourable story. It is wether me living in it’s own world or me sharing the life with another me.

There is a possibility of having a spiritual life where me is completely consumed with god and doesn’t care of anything else. or there is no me left. In any manner it has to be explored first the total understanding of the me, world and god.

Being in a relationship requires a lot of time, growing yourself in meditation requires a lot of time, working requires a lot of time. In this time for meditation must not be compromised, time for work can not be compromised, which leads to compromise the time in relationship.

When I am not with Lin I can give time to meditation with ease, so is with weekends, when I am with her that becomes neglecting her.

Because of it is an unexpected behaviour in society, I had to lie, and then there is sex, she clearly expected more and get less.

There is inevitable that there are expectations from her as well, She had a very high expectation from relationship just like I have from meditation, and that is not being met and it makes her bitter. Not only that expectation is not being met but it is being butchered by me. I am telling her to not count on me.

There are expectation that I will understand her need and do them without she say anything. It is impossible to fulfil such desires unless you are fully committed to her and then she will feel insecure.