Lin.

A thunderstorm hits. Yesterday Lin told me she wants to break up, there are words she used which pears my heart. I am like a prisoner waiting for her sentence.

Even among the midst of that my mind was wandering and thinking other things. Which shows me how little importance I have for her. While she is gasping for the air.

In the whole process, she became the looser. She shared her heart and her home and I just took advantage of her inability to speak up. I knew very well what are her expectations and the mind still keep going forward for my own ease what kind of self-centric mother fucker I am.

If you have any sense of heart just move out. don’t make her suffer, she is a good women. She is perfect in her own way, Don’t change her or give shallow advice. Let the mind do whatever it does.

The relationship cannot be need-based, I don’t want to have sex, I don’t wanna talk over phones to kill the loneliness. I don’t think I wanna play the game of romance. It can not become a purpose. It can not be about an unexperienced dream

A relationship cannot be about Sex, It can not be about lonliness and talking over phone, Or romantic pursuits. It can not be the purpose of the life. It can not be about an unexperinced hope.

It can be about co-opratively supporting each other lifes, sharing happiness and pain, being there when someone needs you. accident. exploring the family life.

There are certain expectations relationship puts upon you, you needs to keep it exciting someway.

For me it was about exploration, and in the moment of weakness kind of hope. It was one driven from the need of this strong unease about having never been in a relationship. and the expactation of marraige.

For her it was the idea of love, hope of marriage, she didn’t say it but it was all this. there was an extreme need there. She has an empty life and a lot of the backward bad experince that makes her life very uncomfortable she has low self worth. Then there is a bad health, pregenancy.

She is innocent like a child and never made a demand from me or atleast spoke of it, She is this nice homely women who keep house clean and do what other people say to her, she is also very

There is no more need of exploration, there is no hope of killing the lonliness by relationship, or finding any sense of hope in that.

You have already damaged her life enough in a sense taking one of the best year of her life for your exploration how mean you can be in the sense of keep doing it.

It will be best for you and her to think about it more clearly and most likely end it and end it with dignity.