Living in the world.

There is a difference between the urges and understanding and the personal power has taken hit with the little sickness or so I think. Rendering me somewhat like a victim. There is a sense of aimlessness with drivelessness. Is it tamas ?

The urges are very strong but this is very temporary too. Your job is to allow it to pass without really giving into them. This is the time to be strong. Face and the challange face to face.

There is so much pull towards acting. But every action is leading be down. Just sitting is quite uncomfartable. And there is a repulsion from the important task.

Maybe it is the medicine maybe something else I can not seems to think clearly.