LOD #58. Mind games. Judgement.

In the afternoon and in general as I was reading through there was mental chaos, a sense of hipocracy, I said that to walasker that it is not good to ask salary and yesterday Avinash told me his salary. I made him a bit comfortable. Then something wasn’t right. I am just overpreparing or avoiding to face the job challange. I don’t know what I am doing, I shouldn’t feel this way after 2 years of studying and all.

Mind was freaking out. Although I did continue doing what I suppose to do but just this mind was freaking all out. All kind of garbage thinking.

I didn’t initiated it, It is just puking it out.

I am not much engaged with other people these days. So ofcourse the silence is causing it headache. If I start engaging with other people it will have all the food to chew. And it is something that can not be solved by doing anything. It is something that needs to be observed and released.

This is exactly where you need to be completely happy by yourself. And face yourself.

Is there something that I am doing that is actually consider wrong and judgement of mind is right on that case.

Everything is on the spot, it might be better if I practice more instead of reading social part. And same with contemplate more as compare to read part of work.

In social part I am actually implementing the next phase. It will be the whole process of understanding and reinventing. So I think I am spot on here. The soical part affects the work side as well. But in the work. I do need to contemplate the next step. Before I pick a new book, in that section.

Social I can continue integrate, learn, redefine the goals.

Spirituality again I am moving into the deeper layer. And health indeed too.

It’s in between mess common have fun. I know things are not clear. But they will be beautiful as I keep moving.