LOD #58. The unease and mental solution.

I was feeling not inspired, I read Bhagwat Gita, and continue to pave the work, the work I am doing wasn’t really creating any meaningful ends. My heart is anxious, it is finding ways to solve the problem. Really stupid and counterproductive ways.

Not inspired, worried, wrong calibration, too much reading and not much practising.. not moving forward in a meaningful way. It’s a doubt.

Since I was finding different ways, I was loosing faith in the direction I am traveling and I am also loosing faith in myself. Why is that!

I am moving in right direction with Spirituality. Social. Health. Work. There is no result and achievement.

There is another stream that I am not in contact with other people. So some shitty things are coming up. Sexual urges. Anxiety etc.

Direction I have no doubt about. It is the uncertainty. And a sense of overprepration.

Can I make a better goals. See there is no goal right now. It is freestyle in terms of milestone. There is.

It is temporary B.S. continue doing what you are doing. Let’s see how long this state stays. I can contact other people and meet. But that is a useless pursuit. Let’s see it through.