the ways of mind

mind is a smooth opponent. yesterday again I felt the power of it. the afflictions are powerful. they temporarily blind you. all of the sudden you loose your peripheral awareness and completely owned by the affliction. the vision become very very narrow. there is sense of pleasure for sure. but at same time be very aware what you are choosing over what. and I can see very clearly how it’s gonna stab me back once it has won.

the best way to deal with it is in the bingeing itself. that is the time when mind tells, lets explore it. I am in control, can’t I handle that, I have handled much bigger stuffs before. but that is where it can be watched very clearly. see the trick is don’t avoid, deny or suppress it. instead just watch. let it pass through you.

empty stretch of time and no work to do is favourite place for mind to toy around with me. be vigilant and aware of it. when you are into that time zone.

I have shown an incredible courage, discipline and heart in last 3-4 weeks. and I know sometime it gets more challenging. but the best thing is I can sniff the outcome. and it is so much heart felt wish to walk on this path.

a year back and I would do anything to be like now.