My experience of relationship with Lin.

I met her in a1000yoga. A smile, a genuine smile and the connection starts to forge, I took her to the MTR, me liked her, but me also was in the zone of playing games, and experiencing relationship with hook or crook and also get it done with this sex thing. I enjoyed her company, she enjoy mine. the me was excited, She gave me the letter and I kissed her, and she gave me the surprise. and then I stayed with her for few days, had sex, she went back. Me told her me didn’t want to she her, me felt the pain of the heart broke. She tried to contact me and me acted as a jerk and closed it.

Me took her to cafes and dates and she loved it, she cooked food and gave her things like umbrella. bottle, and cookies.

After spending some time in innov8 and all, Me saw her post and ask if me can met her. she is being shy and letting people run all over her. she says yes and I went to her home, slept with her, she was doing amrutha bindu course, stay with her, went to the office to read some stuff. and gave her a letter that I didn’t want to see her again but continue talking to her, she sent me mails but kind of afraid of me’s response.

Then me went to dharamshala, stayed in that cottage, and then talking to her, jaipur ask if me can stay with her, she said yes.

Me lived with her maybe for a month, she made cake for me for the b-day. Me made her do weekly plan. Slept together and loved her head in my chest, kisses, hugs.

Then me spent 2 months, alone in agony of not knowing what to do and then decide to teach. She came back and prepare for her exams. me helped her. she helped me by cooking and giving the food. Me decided to not have sex. and probably told her she can live by herself. She went to the srilanka, me went to the vipassana,

She came back and has nothing to do, me is focused on work, she has started to feel aversion towards me, her expectations are not being matched, she told me that she felt like a prisenor. Her breath grasped when me told her he wants to move out. Her friends told her me is the lodger. that she doesn’t feel the same anymore, grudgingly she did some work. She felt very bad and me tried very hard to uplift her the energy of home became sad. Me took home, Me was crying but she didn’t give her a note or anything, she seems to be moving on.

She sent some messages, me made a website for her, she said thank you and ask for the guidance. she sent some messages, me said it doesn’t want to me contacted. now there are some messages from her and me hasn’t checked them.

It was exciting and then it felt good, very good, and then it turn into the routine and then it start to tense and it became sad and leeching on soul and if continue feeding it, it will be like this.