Social Recalibration - Sex.

It is rooted in the thoughts and deeper passions.

There is sex and then there is all kind of fantasies, these fantasies when match in reality do not produce joy but there is the happiness of matching image. These fantasies are one sided and also force other people to do what they probably don’t like to do. Entertaining in mind is only recoating them. They can be let go based on understanding or experience. On by mere observation. The problem is my sexual energy channel through these fantasies which is not healthy. And It is amazing that I don’t get shy saying anything but hesitate and want to look like I didn’t mean that or hide the fact of my desire, ofcourse it unbalance my mind.

Another angle is I don’t want to do it often and I don’t want to waste time about fantasizing it. I matertate once a week and I find it good balance, of course I wanna kiss and hug and other aspects of love and affection. But I don’t wanna do it often. Strictly about sexual intercourse, I like it but not so much, and I hate fantasizing about other thing while doing it. It is one of those things with high price for quick value.

But the emotion is often and frequent that it takes the space in mind. And it is lucrative enough and has enough force that there is a tendency to do it even in the presence of intention.

Delta in last year is astonishing. You didn’t put anymore fire, in terms of new data. You systematically reduce the outlet. You learnt how to do the sex properly. Lost your virginity. Gosh what I was doing and watching, 180 degree flip of mesculanity. You can build it further from this base.

Then there is a spritual angle, sexual misconduct disturbs the mind, makes it unbalanced and it is true, then there is also the concept of loosing energy.

It is also one of the natural force and might stay for rest of the life.

Let go of fantasies, learn to observe the whole wave. Master the wave. If you are in the relationship do it once or twice a week.