overwhelmed

last few days were interesting. I was so overwhelmed by certain affliction that I had to entertain them. and it felt like I was not letting them pass but suppressing them like a dam holding water. once the dam was broken mind overwhelmed me. I couldn’t follow morning ritual and for that matter of fact I couldn’t see much of the value in anything I am doing right now. it was like I totally slipped into that alternative reality. than just like after passing initial breakage of dam flow of water calms down I felt quite ease and grace today. I can start seeing things more of as they are. this is something I used to think is like fatigue, and it’s very real. and this is the difference between practice and just thinking. things like these doesn’t happen if you only think.

also there is very fine line between letting something passthrough and suppressing it.