ph-d summary

I started this month a bit of luck and got this place rakkar, the burning area at the bigenning of the month was this whole social riddle. and pyschology of the outer feild. I had no clue what other people are doing and why and how are they happy, making all these friends. than I had this riddle about relationship, manuplative people and all the spectrum. my mental health and self esteem was also suffering wounds from the time of dubai.

I read enough books to understand the fundamentals of transactions and relationship. I don’t have a plan still and I don’t think I can make a plan like that. I need the real world observation and develop my recognition faculty for that.

as far far the process goes I read books first week, read more books second week, started to sketch out these books in third week. start to fiddle around with the idea of starting something like fight medicority and started to watch videos of other people like fight mediocrity. looking for sort of project.

it was an amazing month. in a nutshell i knew sort of the direction, but allowed myself to wander a bit. there is a frustation when you try to stretch something beyond it’s limit. and then you figure something else. and move forward.

I think for first 2 weeks I did chew food as good as I can and as things became more uncertain I started to leave these important things or started to give less importance to it.