process

I had this belief, there is a moment than everything changes. like from today i decided to move on and now everything is different. just like that. but that belief is shattering with time. this belief itself is built on a foundational belief that there is a solid you. that has this power and will to do it. what if you are just a process, you can’t decide to change, it’s not your decision to make. but you can influence the process. you can optimize it. what if the point of your whole life is to keep refining this process. this is a spiral. i think after a while it will start to roll by itself.

there is a thousand of small decision to make everyday. seemingly trivial from point of view of solidity. but if we look it from process point of view what could be more important than that.

I think from here onword. this is all about refining that process. the patience and awareness are the tools. this is the core.