QA #11

Q I am not really sure, what should I do, the goal is not clear, attempt doesn’t carry emotional element. although I do have a vague goal to be good at social skill.

this is exactly what I should do in this situation. step back, ask question and make sure you know what you are doing. so why exactly I am so interested in social dynamics ? it is very evidently affecting quality of my life. this is actually a huge blocker as well as aspiration. not having the skill and understanding is promoting all kind of denials. but is there anything more important to do than this ? it feels like an extension and application of self knowledge. although a thought of being trapped in this mental mirage linger every now and then. how would you know if that is true ? I think it becomes painfully obvious if it is a trap. after walking a little further. fair enough.

how you handling the challenge ? have you diagnosed it ? I would say I am aware of a lot of false belief and conditioning of mine. I am also getting more aware of the game of socialization. there is absolutely no doubt it is very beneficial to read and educate yourself. I can also see slight changes in my behavior every now and than. but I am getting this feeling that it is not an optimize thing I am doing. I don’t have a plan of action.

there is this conflict in my mind. between I am reading it but not putting in practice and I don’t have enough information to diagnose the problem properly. what should I do ?

If I have more concrete realization. I can start putting them out in the real world. observe, test and fail. I can utilize my day to day challenges more appropriately. this means I will have to cut down a little on grabbing more information and think it through a basic foundation. the concept would be crude but they can be chiseled with more understanding. books are props don’t fuse them with skill. so start forming the concepts.