Qa #8

Q - I am feeling doubtful that wether I can actually do this whole social thing or not

First of all why it is important to do. Exactly what value it is bringing and what if I don’t do it all together.

I feel like it is very strong subconscious desire to socialize and having relationship
And accept it or deny it. It is fucking there. It is a blocker. It is something I want but because I am not good at. So I get into denial I had done some many compromises before and abundance of them are coming if I don’t learn it.

The confusing part is I have a very vague picture at best of what exactly I am after. And who will not feel discouraged if the image of result is vague and parameters of progress is missing. Even general fear is getting compounded in it. Is it one of those thing that comes into the way or is it one of those I want

And it is fine if I don’t know as long as I know I am reading to create that image