Reality Check

It’s been around a month, I am staying at home, and I am getting better at it, I did yoga, learned to cook, called Lin, watched porn and movie. Complete cloud devops nanodegree and working on data engineer.

There is no clear direction in terms of work, relationship, and vipassana, I feel like I am getting lost in the rut. I am doing meditation but like there is no soul to it. No intention or energy more like going through the motion.

Life has presented an amazing opportunity in front of me, It has presented the endgame. Here is a situation that I kind of avoided in one form or another. A naked situation.

I am clearly capable of rising above the situation but for some reasons keep sinking.

The best work that can be done here is on the level of awareness and the internal world.

On the second layer yoga, and programming.

 
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