Recalibrating sprituality - the voice.

From the time I wake up there is constant and ever changing voice. The voice also has physical component. And it is very changing. It easily fills the empty space.

What voice say will feel good, actually doesn’t. For example sexual fantasy. In the realm of the internal world it arouses me but in the realm of reality it even frustrate it. The interesting thing is while I am doing in the reality, I am still imagining the stuff to arouse myself.

The voice is different and at the time of effect the voice is different.

It is uncontrolled or the by product, it subsided when I am focused.

It feels fearful and afraid and ask to do certain things to make sure it feels ok. Things like ask for salt, if I don’t that means I lack confidence, if I do it kind of feel ok.

When I follow what it says, It only gets into the deeper dissatisfactory hole.

It likes to take credit and build the self image based on what I did. The voice also uses word I. So when I work hard and accomplish something it feels good.