refactoring guiding principle.
primal attitude -
when I reflect on primal attitude in meditation, it start with a short of shock, like common we are not just animal but than it start to make sense, I usually start with picturing myself as primal human, and than some peoples I know, and than move to see how everything root back to two simple aspiration avoid suffering and wish to happy. than I connect how afflictions distort reality and create suffering. sometimes I also reflect how virtues leads to happiness. and than i see how time washes everything. things that seems to be so solid real and permanent ( happiness or suffering ) everything dissolve with time. so actually I ended up with one reflection that includes what I first thought was 3 different principles. so obviously, now i have one primal guiding principle.
skill = consciousness*struggling time - when I reflect upon it. initially comes to my mind how I develop gross skill like programming. but I surely didn’t mean that when I was making it my guiding principle. I meant it in much more deeper sense any quality like courage, patience, wisdom, compassion to primal one like speaking is developed by putting consciousness and struggling time. same way put consciousness in confusion and it brings up fear, jealously and whatnot. what I would really like to add here is a reflection on how expression and craft is different from each other
motivation decide result - this is the one I struggled with most. when I bring it to the mind nothing comes up. I start with reflecting how right motivation help me achieve goals like freelancing, traveling, and all. but these are very gross level things. I think I should reflect first on how correct why helps people I admire to reach where they are. and how it is different.
than I would also like to add reflection on faith in equation like why I collided with freelancing, tushita, EE, namshi without directly looking for them.
mental gratification is cheapest kind of happiness- when I bring this into my mind it quickly shows a ton of hopeless example of attachment and anger. with a bit of compassion. it would be really nice to add a reflection of how fear destroy quality of life.
technical aspiration- this is a new reflection I would like to add to make sure I know why I go to office.