Relationship questions?

is it better to be alone or be in a relationship?
I have spent enough time alone as well as in relationship. When I am alone I can focus more on meditation and personal growth. There is a sense of lack or lonliness espeically if it was hard working day or if I am not working socially.

When I am being alone, women starts to attract me. There is also an element of not just being alone, but being clear and directed vs. being kind of lost.

What are the good parts of relationship?
One of the best part is when I know I will come back to home and their will be someone at home, just being there, kind of hugging and talking.

I also like she sleeping next to me.

The aspect where she took care of me when I was injured and she took care of me.

There was a time when we walked to buy those mangos. the sweet surprises she gives me.

Just kind of like being around her. and when she hugs me back. talk nonsense while holding my arm. crying on my chest.

What I don’t like about her?
when she is revolting silentely.