Relationship.

The relationship with Lin is really in a strange spot. She is in a tough spot. She doesn’t know what she is doing. She has no mind control. She is getting into negative spirals easily, and she is not making wise choices.

And then, she has a very fixed mindset. Infect, she thinks to change is an unethical thing to do. She doesn’t want to go to the therapist.

She is acting very needy and creating this environment in the house that is quite unproductive for her and for me.

She is in constant neediness. There is this thing that she does now that she tells about why you said that etc.

There is another aspect that she acts helpless and I act as a savior, another game of relationship.

Now, this is creating a sense of low self-esteem in me. It is me acting weak. Me not wants to hurt her.

What makes this arrangement complicated is that there are some parts I like and maybe some parts I don’t like doing e.g. breaking her heart and seeing her crying. And I am choosing the easy path. And that is taking a toll on my self-esteem.

The question is simple you want to marry her? The answer is clean. No. Then what the fuck are you doing. This kind of relationship will not last long.

It is not a good reason but a sign of coward that just in case. If you want to go to the next level, you know what you need to do. It will not feel good to her, but that’s best for her. And she will have to take her share if she is not willing to own the life.